To Be a mother...

To be a mother means,

You have to hold back tears,

Even when you feel you'll dissolve in them...

To be a mother means,

You have to eat and be merry,

When your world is sinking...

To be a mother means,

You should look forward to the life within you and cherish it,

When you feel like dying...

To be a mother means,

Its your responsibility to bear a healthy happy baby boy,

For its your supreme duty, though you may be sick of life!

There are things...

There are days that aren't so bright,

There are nights that are so blue,

In the moments that I feel so lonely....

These are times when I need you!

There are times when all sounds are harsh,

When all words just leave me cold,

These I times I need your warmth,

To comfort me and to hold...

There are times my heart just breaks,

And melts in unshed tears,

There are things I could say just to you,

In my heart when no one hears...

There are so many times and more

When I need you close to me,

O my love, come hold me close to you,

And there, just let me be...!

A blank mind, a heavy heart!

They say that grief speaks but sorrow remains tongue-tied. Well, I don't say that I am in the throes of some sorrowful emotion, and yet when the heart aches so much for some one's presence around you, your mind somehow alienates itself from its surroundings and becomes so completely blank. Does an artery when severed from the heart ache? I don't think so. And yet it ceases to have any meaning. Is that how I feel these days? But its not on all days. Sometimes I feel like my cup is full and I feel ready to burst into tears. And at others I just feel I don't exist at all.

O my God... look at all I have been writing and at least one thing is for sure- I am going out of my mind! Separation is so painful that it does wreck havoc on the mind. I hope this longing finds its culmination soon in your arms...

Amateur Blogging

I am hardly a blogger yet and still I must be doing something to provide some means of activity to the grey cells  in my brain (at least they are supposed to be there). I do not know what to write- there seems to be a dearth or topic and there also seem to be so many of them. Of course one has an opinion on almost everything but is that a sufficient enough topic? Well anyway none of the things seem to be important enough to write about- though opinions will be formed and held, they will not be written. At least not for the present.

I seem to have finished a singularly inconclusive and matterless paragraph so I daresay I should be closing down the mind shop for today :)

Hope I do get a hang on this blogging stuff soon....